Monday, November 14, 2005
Stress
Suddenly i feel so stress. That kind of stress i had during my secondary school times. Secondary 1 and 2. Hard to find one people to depend on also. Long time never ask myself from the heart what did i do. Everyday is just a routin.
Eat , Sleep , Drink , Go school , Take bus , Serve net. Nothing more else i can do. No CCa no anything. Life become such a drag. Schoolwork is making me crazy like *toot* All the lectureres dunno what the *toot* they talking about. Like talking to themselves. Trying to be funny all the time so that can make people happy. At least there will be one lesser people to feel unhappy abot this world.
What can i say ? Happiness is not about finding a girlfriend. Its actually know what you want in life. I know what i want in life just today. It just Struck me. Power Frame Glory Money long longer what i want. I just want a simple life. $5000 monthly salary , One wife ( Sweet Sweet one , Cute cute one , Elegance one , Caring one , virtious one ) , 3 kids , one roof enough for everyone and a transport maybe. Like that enough already.
Well.. that take time to happen. so at the mean time what i do ? Relationship ? Maybe bah. I like this Girl. Yeah , quite elegance , Cute , SWeet sweet de , Sporty also ... Pretty my type. Then she is also not those chiongster or Ah lian ... Plus she friendly firendly de... Pretty my type. But you know. This kind of girls is hot favourite. She is not attached lar. But, i dun think i got chances. Low chances. So what to do ? Go bang wall lor. If not how ?
My this semester works is not easy bah. Harder than the previous one . So stress lor. And somemore, got preassure. NEed to do well ... If dun do tutorial cannot sleep sia ... Then also quite broke... Haizz ... Life is fill with problems.
Then my father health is detiorating day by day. Drink so much. Go to the smoky pubs all those. OVerly stress. Sometimes i really wish that i want to take over his position so that he can live longer. Its not easy man. BIg projects overseas. Imagine Chao Chu Kang stadium is his design and he build one ?
Jia Wei grandfather just passed way. My grandparents are not young also. I don't know when will be the time for them to go. I dun know what will happen to me when that really happened. Can i die before everyone else so that i dun have to see all these things ?
I always make my mother upset. Cos i sleep late. She say will spoil my body. And i always heck care her. Then she also never sleep . Checking on me every hour. VEry guilty. Actually i have a damm good mother already. I will not ask for other mother already. Just that she is a bit paranoid. Well who dun have weakness ? A mother who can cook, can take care of your daily needs, talk to you nicely and dun cane you, give you freedom, protect you, make tonic for you to drink and she not drinking it so that we have more, Sometimes i just want to go and hug her. Cos she is the only girl i hug already won't get slapped on the face. No lar. Is because i know she is one of them that loves me . thanks whatever god who give me this mother.
But as we grow older, we usually dun express our feelings to our family. Cos we have been seeing them too much already. So you will say your problem to your friends. I also like that. HArdly communicate with family. Brother say vuglar slap his face. Come home , sometimes maybe never talk more than 10 sentences at home. Quite bad actually...
Last of all... You can have many many many friends. Which of them is true to you. Those who party with you ? Those is happy with you nia ... Those true friends is those will be by your side de... Shannon is one of them. How to say ah. he really is by my side de alwways. i am glad i have this Chee Hong Friend... Still got a few lar. I am doing my tutorial. Mirco .. Not EAsy lar ... So i got to study bah. Got time then mention their names.
AnaLoG: Woei Luen and his world of Friends
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