Understand me... Hahah.. This is 98% true so this rougly will describe what a person am I. You cannot change me. This is my inborn charater.
Wong Woei Luen-
These people are intelligent and as clever as the best of them. They are quick-minded and able to perceive the flaws in others' concepts. Their minds scrutinize everything. It is the truth that is their motivating force. They are free spirits who find themselves going contrary to almost everything and everyone. If they are repressed in any way they can become rebellious or self-indulgent and create chaos in their environments. They can accomplish ten times more than anyone else because of their drive and fearlessness. They dare to be great and dare anyone who tries to stop them. If this force is not disciplined and directed, the frustrations can lead to self-destruction because of the inherent mental intensity. This influence contains a profound mental capacity for analysis and deduction, always stimulated by their response to untruth. They are here to right the wrongs of humanity.
Restlessness and change are integral parts of their lives. If there is no challenge in their work, change is impending. They work for, and demand, their independence. Their minds never stop cogitating about things. They are serious and worrisome, and can spend many sleepless nights playing the same mental tunes. Their accomplishments unfortunately do not include the ability to find peace of mind. Only when their lives are motivated by a noble purpose can they begin to feel a deep satisfaction in their work and life, otherwise they search endlessly for the elusive answer to life, and their miseries. They will travel the world either literally or through books in order to satisfy their insatiable need for answers to their questions. They must understand the force that drives them or they will be driven to distraction. Their creative impulse does not conceive any limitations once awakened. They draw from an energy that seems unlimited, but definitely has its limitations when they push themselves too hard.
Their deep sense of responsibility and commitment will drive them to the point of exhaustion. Often it is only through strenuous physical exertion and exhaustion that they can induce a kind of relaxation that serves as a temporary relief from their worries. This is a very mental or intellectual force that has a tremendous insight into things as long as it flows out of the strength of their independence. If they are thwarted in their efforts, their minds can become quite critical and their scepticism can blind them to the truth. Injustice can make them mad and they are formidable fighters. They must learn the great truth, that answers come in the midst of battle only when the fight is impersonal. Truth must be the focus, not getting even. If this influence is misdirected their repression will self-destruct into some form of indulgence. Worry is their nemesis. They would do well to laugh more often. Their criticism of others can become quite intense and holding grudges could be a problem. Holding on to their problems mentally invariably leads to ulcers or other stomach problems.
posted at [10:46 PM]
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
Reflection
Today CCA Display. The weather is fuktup. Want to rain, rain big big . Don't want to rain don't rain. Why must drizzle. Drizzling make the floor wet wet. Then when i need to do marking then cannot do leh. Cannot stick to the ground. But anyway. Parade went out okie. Okie only. When cotingent commander take over, the parade marker still marching in. Emcee's fault.
Today i play with the comissioned sword. After holding it, i got inspired. Thinking 1 day maybe i will own one myself. Maybe i shall. I think i will. ALL THE WAY manz. ROAR.
Anyway today have the feedback AAR. I was shoot for too inflexible. Can't be help. I am in charge of management. And the management all have some standard procedure to follow. Like telling them what is right and what is wrong kana classify as inflexible. Then so be it. Regementeation things is right and wrong. Wrong must correct what. Strong regementation will differeniate between a good unit and bad unit. Like that consider inflexible. Then so be it . I am just like that...
What i truely think over is what Mr Chia says. Highest level of leadership is people are scared of you but they respect you. To attain that, you must know how to handle people. Some go hard on them, some go soft. Agreed.
But our hardwork and contribution who will know. We almost got outcasted by fighting for their rank, we stay up late just to meet over some things. We got scolded by our superior for letting you to fufil your ego. Anybody understand that a not? CLT not human is it.. We have our own personal life too. Just like you all. But you all only think about yourself. Letting you all do things you want which is wrong shows that we are not doing our job well. Doing our job well will not will let you all not happy. Then in the first place don't join NCC.
Well. Be a CLT is hard, be a SCLT is harder.
AnaLoG: Be a leader is hard. Be a good leader is harder.
posted at [9:21 AM]
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Clt in the past VS Clt in the present
Love saint is going to blog something about the things he understood after a long walk home. Now more and more people are getting into love. Why because it is cheap ? Because of excess supply thats why the price drop ? No man. Now what people finding is love not the person they love. The partner can be any good looking people and then they just got attracted by looks. And then all they need is love from the other tom dick and henry. Compared to the old tradtional way of love, is the finding the person they love. Its two different type. One had more value the other has lesser one. The first one is something like fling. I prefer the 2nd one
Today went for NCC training. Spend so much money on taking cab and give me this kind of things. Parade. Insturctor from other CCA want to keep kei kiang. Let them kei kiang. Friday see what will happen :).
Then AAR something happen. Aloyius suddenly went very negative. He quarrel with SCLT adrain. You see before a staff quarrel with CLT before? Not dun let them feedback but its the wrong way. Want to feedback must also speak with manner. I is let them continue. Almost wanted to scold people. Then i say about the hair. The OM even clarify that if the hair no matter how you pull down touch the eyebrow cannot. Side burn half behind cannot touch collar. I just call them to cut and then they all give stupid attitude.
Thinking of the past. When i was a cadet. You dun even much chance to feedback. Now we just let them feeback and they bloody climb over CLT head. 1 more time this kind of thing i will chu stunt. I haven't chu stunt as a clt yet. i chu stunt on my brother. I can just throw his handphone to the big dustbin. Still got what thing cannot do. And last time when got CLT call you cut hair de. Last time hair long your rank 1 by 1 take off. And always need to remind de. Where got this kind of fuck. Nah. The old way is better. I will go back to the old way. Want to hate me. Let the cadets hate me. They are just a bunch of kids who don't understand what is the organization goal. This kind of standard go out let people see you 2nd in national people where will believe.
I shall give chances to those hardworking one... I swear i gonna be hush. Try me :) Push your luck ... See how hard you can go ...
posted at [8:26 AM]
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Projects Mates
Life just sucks when school reopened and you have to face fuktup project mate. Spare my vuglarities, because i will use a lot in this post.
Here you are trying very hard to earned marks for the group making eveything so nicely and dummy and what they have to do is to fill in the template which i think i can also do it in a short while. Then they all fuktup. I mean ALL. Just because i not around when they are doing their last minute work. And i trust them to do a good job. This is the result of trusting others too much. Depend on moutain, moutain will have land slide. Depend on human, human will fuktup.
Then there is this presentation which is tml. And no one knows about it or even cares about it. Until midnight then someone came to ask me. Tml got presentation right. Then for the first time i had the shock of my year. To hell no one knows about it. I gather all project mates and discuss what to do. So i say, lets all wear balck shirt , biz pants and a tie because for this project we are suppose to role play bankers. And bankers don't go around wearing jeans and slippers. They all wear blazar for corperate presentation. Since no one wanted then tie at least. Then all complain they no tie. Fine. Then i said black shirt and business pants. Then there is this guy say no need so formal one. And i told him we are being acess on professionalism and classroom setting. And they say they no black shirts or white shirts. Trust me i predict some body will wear jeans and shirt with street shoes.
And for this while i have done so much for the project and they want to mess around. Might as well don't present. Thats the best. Then there is this guy. Call him do this thing he not free. Call him got meeting, i need to go off. Call him do project on holidays, my birthday need to go chalet. Then when he do things , every sentence got grammar error and meaning is different. Then he can say like our bank operates with 641 branches all over the world with 300 staff in each bank. Do you see anybank with 300 banks ? Then the best part is, i type for him nice nice in msn. All he need to do is copy and paste. And you know what camp out. IT manage, excetive jason. I type IT excetive for him. And he ~
Then got another one thinks that he had done a lot but his excetive summary is like fuk. I gave him the notes. Gave him the templates and all he did was write a few sentences and he deemed that he had done a lot. Then compare to mine i like doing 70% of the project with me spoon feeding another 29% . And the project can still fuktup
And i am all along now 2.30pm doing the bloody presentaion myself..
Life just suck is sucky project mates
posted at [10:09 AM]
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