At this cold and lonely night, my heart sour into the wind that blow gently on my face
A few people ask whether am i attach a not. And i just kept quiet and do not want to answer their question. Most people will think that yea i am not attach. Yah... Cannot be lar.. ypu this kind of size how to be attach. Well. The world is so unfair. When you take a walk down orchard road, you will see very pretty girl with good bodies hanky panky with a super plum X 2 woei luen size guy. And most of the guy walk by will shout things like " Unfair ah... Cannot be ah... Heaven is blind ah"
Girls maybe also. Look at a very dashing and handsome looking guy with a girl ugliest of the century. And they will have the same response. SO why is it woeiluen with all right looking , just a little plump, fanicial wise stable only, good temper, good to talk with and a good listener, why has he not girlfriend up to now. Is not that he cannot find. But is his type of girls is hard to find and yeah they are usually taken. But not that people dun want him. There is but... just feeling not right
ANother main reason is he is devestated about it already. When you are sad t0 the ultimate, you can't even drop a tear becuase it is already dry. He had not being crying for months, and years.
Looking at her picture in friendster by some of the picture she took with her friends. I saw one of recent picture also. She had braces on. Still as pretty. She look well and happy. Its good to see her doing fine because she had been disappearing from my world for 1 year. What school she is now. Where she stay. Whats her mobile number. Her email. All these seems to become unknown.
Perhaps i do understand relationship at that young age. Who say secondary school student dun understand what is the relationship adult is talking about. perhaps i mature faster. 3 years of unaffection waiting. plus another 3 years keeping right in my heart. Deep down inside it. All i ask for is her peace, her happiness and her well being. And nothing else. I will suffer the tumoil and pain on my own.
Up to now i she is still in my heart kept sercured. Not leaving. And will always stay inside. She just surface back to my heart just today when i felt so much agony. I can't really describe the feeling but i feel so much like telling someone else. But there is not one to talk to. No one will understand. 5 YEARS. The saddest feeling is not shown when people cry. It is you heart feel so much like crying but there is just not tears. Its unbearingly painful and saddening.
I tried to find some other people with her lock in my heart. When that person was about the replace her position, that person left and that person left without bring her away from the heart prison of mine.
Just a lonely night that rake up all my sad past. You think a happy go lucky person is always happy go lucky ? He or she must be feel something worst than the problem he or she is facing now so he or she can be like that, happy go lucky. That applies to me.
HEr birthday is coming and is exactly the same date is ZHU's birthday. PAst year. I would save up lots of money just to buy her something good for her present. This year, i will saving money just to pay for the things to buy. But i will still wish her. Just that i don't know whether she will get the wish a not.
Lord Of AGONY - Feed me with all the agony and i shall carry it for you
posted at [10:00 AM]
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