Something that will change my life
I thought this kind of things will not happen on me. I thought I live very peacefully. I thought I will go on smoothly in my life, marry a wife and have 3 kids then until i grow old and happily after and I go on to my eternal life.
But something shocking has happen. Its regarding a life. I don't know what will happen. Maybe I will not stay in the condo that we all are hoping for. Maybe I will not enjoy life like what I am now. What if that thing really happen. My family will collapse.
Today I was in school. To everyone is a normal day. But for me, its like a day which I never wish to have. I found out something shocking in the morning when i wake up. Its my sister who told me that. I keep on flipping news paper and its true. I was so distrub when I was in school. I have no mood for anything. People was trying to make a fun out of me. In normal days I will feel alright. I mean if like that can make people happy by all means. But today I feel very irritated. Even when I talk I was hoping that the person talking to me can just shut out and give me some peace. My heart was very anxious during lesson. I feel so much like just run out of the classroom and go for a long sprint. Its that kind of feeling which you are very worried about. I just wished to tell someone. And the first person I think of I don't dare to tell her. The second person I think of don't understand what the hell i talking about.
My mother think that I don't know what is happening. But I know. Everybody is acting normal but is not. I know what is happening. Now I can only pray to whatevery god that please please please let the best senario happen.
Please man. I have been a vegetarian for many many years. So please use my all these years de deeds exchange back my normal life.
AnaLoG: When there is problem and you got no one to talk to, you are a failure because you have no true friends.
posted at [8:24 AM]
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